When You Say You Love Me
Today I received some very encouraging words from
my beloved Jimmy.
But there is always something in a woman, that makes her think twice and doubt
about the love that she so softly receives, even after almost 11 years together.
Why is it so hard for a woman to believe, that she is loved?
That she is his beloved?
Why do some wounds of the past continue to haunt
even the present?
What do you do about them?
How do you push them away?
How do you make them stop hurting?
How, beloved heart of mine?
I told him today, that it can not be too easy, to love someone like me.
I am quite difficult in many ways.
I do not express too many words, I am quite silent.
I have a silent but very bruised heart.
I do not like too many words, I do not trust them....
I do not trust 'a charming heart' because it is many times deceitful....
And I will rather be unhappy with the truth, rather than to rejoice with
charming lies.
No, I do not trust many words and I never will.
But than he tells me;
'Yes, it is easy loving someone like you'
It is? I asked, looking at him all puzzled.
Why so, do you say?
Because it is. You are so easy to love.
You are very lovely and lovable,
you just do not see it for yourself......
Silence. Complete silence rested in my heart.
Did I just hear him right? yes, I think I might have.....
I must have....
I am loved even if I still don't have the strength to believe it.....
And so are You, beloved reader of mine...
So are You....
God bless You and Keep you
in all your little ways....
Jasmina
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